[[Dropping Josh, as I am with most rps >< This years gonna just be too busy for me to commit to comms and stuff. It's been a good run though. ]]

It's handy when you have something to focus all your energy into.
That way you don't have to mull over just how miserable things can be at times.

It would explain why I'm always less than cheerful, but I'm never really down in the shits.
I can't afford to have a "breakdown" or whatever.


Jesus, I feel old.

Well, wow is about all I can say, really. It's been a good long while since I spoke to any of you.
I guess I've just really been trying to keep on top, what with bringing Natey up and stuff. He's almost 7 months old now, he's starting to pick himself up a bit now and honestly, it's adorable.


Being a single parent is terrifying, honestly. Lauren was so much help to me, and I owe a lot to her. Now that she's left, things are going to get harder but well, I've coped up until now.


Other than that, I guess I don't have much to say. I'd like a little bit of human interaction though, so feel free to come bug me (back in the old apartment again) or IM me on DontSleepTooFast


Until next time

Josh xx

1. List 10 things you want to say to 10 different people but you know you never will.

2. Don't say who they are.

3. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything. I'll probably do both.

4. Never discuss it again. Feel free to discuss


1. I really thought that you would give me everything. We had a kid together and then you just left me. Not even a word of notice, a goodbye, nothing. I'm still wearing your fucking ring, for all the worth it has now.
2. You just proved to me exactly why I was single for so long. I was staying away from fuckers like you.


3. You've been there for me pretty much constantly. You're letting me live with you, for christ sakes. You're prtty much like wonder woman.
4. I couldn't have picked a better godmother if I'd tried.


5. I miss you. You're happy, and I'm not, and I really don't know where I went wrong.
6. Maybe it was when I said no to you.


7. When you're older, I'll be able to tell you how much you did for me.
8. You pretty much saved my life.


9. You did more for me than you'll ever know.
10. You're gone now, but you're always in my mind.

I moved in with Lauren =)


And guess what. I still feel like a complete failure.
I love Lauren so much, she's probably my best friend here, but...I miss the times when I had someone telling me he loved me, and I actually knew he did.
I miss the times when I didn't think I'd be practically a single parent.
I miss the times when my supposed fiance actually spoke to me.

Is it too much to ask to be happy? Really?

Apparently so.

I'm out.

Josh xx

Okay, fine.
I've cracked.
Yes, I want to know the father of my baby.

However, two have skipped town.

So of the two remaining. You know who you are.

Could you do me the huge favour of possibly giving dna samples when I go up to the clinic?

It'll take less than 10 minutes, you just need to go up, they'll take a small vial of blood and that's it.

I'm not expecting anything from the father at all.
I just want the peace of mind.

So Nathan's started to sleep through the night, le gasp.
Well, when I say that, i mean 6 hour stints.
Its better than nothing I'm telling you.
Syn's been AMAZING through this whole thing, and..
I've deicded I'm not getting a paternity test.
If any of the potential fathers want to take that up with me,
thats cool.
But I don't want to know, personally.
As far as I'm concerned, Syn's his dad and thats it.
End of.


DontSleepTooFast
USE IT PEOPLE

[Yish, this means end of hiatus. Sorry about doing it so suddenly and waiting ages before posting that. I got MAJORLY banned from the internet (long story) and I had to get someone froma different comm. to post that for me. (Luff yew Jane ^^)

I'll go write Adam's update now.. ^^]]

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OOC:



Due to personal reasons, I need to put Adam (adamxneedsxhelp) and Josh Farro (this one) on hiatus until further notice. If Adam has been deleted for not updating, then don't worry and I'll reapply him after the hiatus is over.

Thanks

Cara x

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Well, here he is.
Nathan Adam Farro.
Born 7 1/2 lbs
On May 2nd 2008

So...
Where's the other daddy?

He came back! :)

( SYNYSTER GATES (I told you I'd do it) )

Its okay, you can be jealous.
Just can't touch ^_^